Absolutely, your worship

[brigid]

2-14-2023

"I'm a gay man, but I'm meeting my female wife here later."

"I'm not sure that's how "gay" typically works, my guy."

"Ah yes but I love her and by "love" I mean "worship." As one does. Describe what I love about her? Sorry, hard pass."

"Damn, you ALSO like to swing your wife around wildly making fuck eyes at each other in public?"

I didn't notice yesterday but she was so shocked that he's gay that her neckline changed. Or else she was wearing a choker that she removed?

Anyway, McEldowney has a really weird idea of what "love" is, as it's almost entirely both physical and worshipful.

What does Amos love about Edda? Other than her legs and her toe cleavage? January 29th, 2023 has a sweet strip that shows a non-physical way that Edda makes Amos feel: when he's down she brightens his mood, his life. He doesn't feel alone when he's with her (while that may sound weird, it's very possible to feel lonely or alone even when you're around a lot of people). But other than that we don't know that much about their relationship other than that they like to hump on table tops and atop musical instruments on stage, and they enjoy humping while tangoing. They share some common interests, but what do they like about each other? What do they talk about? How do they describe each other to other people? Let me tell you, there's a LOT that I could ramble on about that I like, that I love, about my husband. And I could talk your ear off about various friends and family members of mine that I love, too. It should be easy to say what you love about someone.

But McEldowney's lovers rarely say what they love about their paramours. Instead they recite words from a damp-paged thesaurus.

There's absolutely ways to say "Yes, I primarily am attracted to and fall in love with men but I love Fernanda because of X, Y, and Z reasons" that don't involve vague "weakness" phrasing.

The ONE WORD he uses to describe his feelings toward her isn't "love," it's "worship."

When folks talk about "worshiping" their loved ones it generally means they don't see the person as an actual person. They're projections. It's easy to love a projection. A statue teetering up on a pedestal doesn't leave dirty socks on the floor or chew too loudly or leave clean dishes in the dish washer instead of just putting them away. That statue doesn't leave hairs in the sink or run late every morning. That statue is at constant risk of crashing down.

Seth was initially attracted to Fernanda because of her dancing. That's what he claimed, at any rate: it wasn't HER, it was the way she expressed her art. He is also a dancer, they were fellow professionals at the top of their game. They shared something in common not just in general but every single day when they practiced and when they performed. They shared a pool of friends. Seth and Edda showed Fernanda around the city and spent time with her as a very passive aggressive way of getting back at her for being a homophobic asshole to Seth previously. (This paid off by her continuing to be a homophobic asshole to people, especially Mark.)

Fernanda injured her knee and can no longer dance, at least professionally. Her ballet career is ended, although we haven't heard that Seth has retired. If he was attracted to her ART then what attracts her to him now that she's no longer capable of expressing that art? And frankly, how does she feel that her dance career was cut short while his is still apparently going strong?

Now, I'm 100% sure that "my ballet career is over, I'm hobbled for life, I will never dance or walk the same ever again" for Fernanda is a hundred thousand times more athletic and graceful than I've ever been ever in my entire life including when I was dancing competitively. Of course Fernanda can dance the tango in ways I can only ever dream of... hell, in ways so far beyond me that I can't even dream of them.

But she's not the pure distillation of art any more.

What does Seth do with her other than worship her and engage in sexual behavior in public?

Anyway, I don't know if Mary's "Wow!" is a reaction to Seth stating that he worships his wife or if it's a reaction to how hot she finds Fernanda but I'm sure we'll find out as this drags on and ever on. It's only Tuesday. What other man can still wander in and reject her?